I've been a religious Bachelor fan since I was first exposed to Ben Higgins three short seasons ago. How I made it 23 years without watching a season of this show is beyond me, but now I am addicted. Since my first episode I've always said I would love to be on the show. It all started as a joke, about a year ago when I found out I was being laid off from The Knot. My coworkers were avid Bachelor fans and we talked about it each week on Tuesday morning, so when I found out I was losing my job I joked and said "there's a casting call in NYC in July, I'll be there." I didn't go though. I moved home and began my dreaded job search. I put the Bachelor on the back burner and didn't give it another thought until this year. My roommates jokingly said they could see me on the show, we joked about life in the mansion, but thats all it was... a joke.
About three weeks ago Shawna texted in our group chat for my email address. She said she was nominating me for the Bachelor and that I needed to send her 7 photos to include in the application. I laughed and said 'okay, sure' and picked out my best photos. She submitted an online application and mailed one in. Continuing on with the joke I said, 'since I got fired and have free time I think I should take it as a sign and go to the in person audition'. We looked up local cities and dates and now here I am, back in my hammock, writing about my joke of an audition that isn't actually a joke anymore... It's real life. Tomorrow I am trekking to Baltimore to stand in line with probably a thousand other girls and sit in front of a camera and pour my heart out to a complete stranger and beg for my chance to be on next seasons show.
And I am TERRIFIED.
But also really excited. Like as excited as I was when my parents finally caved and bought me a horse or how excited I expect to be on my wedding day. But it's also really hard to contain my excitement and not get my hopes up. They receive hundreds of thousands of applicants for The Bachelor Franchise and only 27 girls go on each season. 27. My odds are very slim, but it's more about the experience. I'm doing something that not many people do. I'm putting myself out there and hoping that this producer sees in me what every person that says they could see me on the show saw in me. I was made for this. Having lost two jobs in a year span was super hard on my ego, but I lost them both in the same time of year. The Bachelor films in the fall, and I was free last fall and I am going to be free this fall. The nice part of being a grad student and full-time Uber driver is that I have nothing but time and a flexible schedule.
There are some skeptics and preconceived notions about "finding love" on tv. But tbh, it has to be better than the "love" I'm finding generically. There are some amazing love stories to come from The Bachelor shows: Carly & Evan, Sean & Catherine, ASHLEY I & JARROD. If you don't watch the shows then those couples mean nothing to you, but to the fans, they found their soulmate on television. True love is true love. Doesn't matter where you find it. If this journey is in my cards, then God will make sure that it works out for me. And if it isn't, then my dream man is still out there and this will be a great story to tell him.
Tomorrow, I will live document as much as I can on Snapchat (follow me: @mallory_anne03) and absolutely document the entire thing in another blog post on Friday. But in the meantime, say your prayers, wish me luck, and cross your fingers and toes that I will get to bless your tv screens come next January.
Author - mallory
I've always lived a wild life, so here I am to document it for the world... be ready for some fun adventures, xoxo.