2018 has not been the best year to me. That's one thing I know for sure. I've lived through my parent's divorce, was fired from my job, diagnosed with HPV which led to numerous procedures and the removal of half of my cervix, I began three new jobs to pay for my credit card debt that somehow doubled in six months, and I've lost some friendships over the year. But somehow I'm still here holding up my spirits for 2019. In no way is this a pity party for a shitty year, but instead a lesson to be learned that not every year can be as great as the last, otherwise it wouldn't be life.
Everything that has happened to me this year has taught me a lesson. I've learned that I want to hold out for the perfect man for me, never settle. I've learned that careers sometimes change because you were on the wrong path all along. I've learned how important it is to take care of your body and your mental health. And most importantly I've learned the power in saying no and cleansing your life of relationships that overwhelm you. I've started staying in on weekends because I want to, saying no to plans because I don't feel like going, and doing what I want to for a change. 2018 started as my "year of yes".. it quickly turned to my year of "eh, maybe not" and ended as my year of "nope, sorry".
I've changed my priorities this year and plan to carry that into my new year. 2019 will be my year. I want to do more good in this world, give back to those who are struggling, and be the best version of myself, for myself. I want to stop focusing on the needs of everyone around me and do things that I want to do for reasons I don't need to explain. We get one life to live, how we choose to spend that time is important.
Next year, I am excited to make good on these promises to myself. Besides the everyday good that I am hoping to incorporate more into my life, I have something big planned. Something so big that it will make the problems I faced this year irrelevant and show just how big the world's problems really are. It will show me that despite all of the bad things that I listed above that happened to me this year, there are people out there who are hurting worse. It's another milestone in my journey and very much overdue. And now that I shared it with my mom, I can finally share it with you all too, but with a catch... I won't be announcing it until the new year so that I can truly start out on the right foot. So in the meantime, Merry Christmas to all and stay tuned for my big announcement on how I plan to make 2019 the year I do some real good in this world. xoxo.
Author - mallory
I've always lived a wild life, so here I am to document it for the world... be ready for some fun adventures, xoxo.